Misscarriage 3 years ago, still hurting and depressed. Is it normal? :(?

I am so glad someone else feels the same amount of pain that I feel about my (more recent) miscarriage. I became pregnant in December 2010 by the guy I was, and still am dating. At the time we had only been together 2 months. It was scary. I was not ready at all. I am 22 and he is 35. But we finally accepted the fact and started preparing for the arrival of our little one. For valentines day we took a trip to the city. Talked about the future.. Our baby. Whether or not the relationship would work out I was happy he wanted to keep the baby, as I do not believe in abortions at all. But the day after valentines day, I started bleeding. Needless to say, long story short.. I miscarried. The most traumatic and painful experience of my life.. Both mentally and physically.. It took me weeks to stop crying every day. Every time I see a baby whether I'm out or on tv or even hear one cry.. I cry. And here I am 5 months later.. And I still think about it every day. I had friends tell me "stop being so upset.. It wasn't even a life yet".. Bullshit, it's s life the minute the egg is fertilized by the sperm. It hurts. You wonder why. Why me.. Someone totally willing to do the right thing.. And I cant have my baby. Why her? Why can that girl have her baby and she doesn't even want it. Life isn't fair. Unfortunately there are no answers. We will never know who's fault it as, or why it happened, or what we could have done differently. It just plain sucks. It is absolutely normal for you to feel this way in my honest opinion. Especially because of the pain behind your story. I'm sure I will still cry once a week in 3 years from now. So chin up! One day you will have a baby with a guy who loves you.. You need to let people in so one day, you can be ready for that. You'll never forget, but it will get easier. Good luck to you. :) forgive me for rambling on.